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[wintolive]

ominous...

u wanna know a secret

[wormchick]

Yes please!

[wintolive]

i have this bear my mom gave me when i was little and i still kinda sleep with it sometimes

lol
i dont really tell anyone that but i guess
not many people to tell anyway

[wormchick]

Aw, you have a bear too?
I have a lot - I collect them and sleep with all of them! I want to try and find a sloth bear, but they're hard to find.

Did you know it's good for stress levels to sleep with stuffies? It's been studied!

[wintolive]

really? who knew people studied things like that...

ive had sleep studies before but never with a stuffed animal involved lol (sleep studies suck by the way - how is someone supposed to sleep hooked up to a bunch of machines)

[wormchick]

They study all sorts; but yeah, it's apparently good for blood pressure and things like that :D

I've never had one, but I don't think I'd like that much...
It's hard enough sleeping with a noodle-horse trampling me!

[wintolive]

man
i want a dog so bad

i mean
ive never asked for one
im not sure zeke would say no...

[wormchick]

Lady loved you very much. Granted she has only 2 braincells and loves anyone who gives her good pets, but she was definitely fond of you.

What sort would you like?

[wintolive]

im not sure
lol
when i got sick i was kind of hoping i could have a service dog but i guess there's nothing id really need it for

except maybe biting people who block my path

[wormchick]

I'm not sure a service dog would do that...

Ronan would though! :D

[wintolive]

ronan lynch?

[He doesn't go to school often, but most people know who that guy is.]

do you go to his school too?

[wormchick]

Yes! (Sorry I realized I sent that without any context)

He's dating Chris! And he's kind to me at school, he walks me to class so people aren't horrible to me. He's never bitten anyone to my knowledge, but he seems open to the opportunity.

RONAN X CHRIS REAL U CAN'T KEEP THIS GUY AWAY FROM HARGROVES

[wintolive]

Geez. I always thought that guy was kind of a douchebag. I mean, that's what people say, anyway.

But I don't really go to school anymore.

I guess I'm technically a drop out, but they let me come sit in on classes sometimes and shit like that.

Like a moth to a ginger flame...

[wormchick]

He looks scary and mean, and he can be! But he's also a big softie; I hold his hand sometimes (not for romantic reasons obviously, it's just something that helps me feel calm and safe) and he's never minded!

I'd be happy to study with you sometime, if you like.

[wintolive]

[Ah...]

That sounds nice, but there's really not much point in me keeping up with schoolwork.

I'm going to die soon, so...

[Way to just drop that bomb, Eren, but it's not like there's a nice way to say it. He's used to this conversation by now...]

[wormchick]

[😟]

Die soon..?

Are you being serious? I can't tell if you're kidding

[ Uncomfy feeling in her chest! Building! Either due to the bombshell, or the potential of being made fun of for believing it if he is kidding. ]

[wintolive]

Sorry. I'm not kidding.

My disease has a short life expectancy. I'm on a transplant list, but I'd need a double transplant, and those are hard to get. It's not likely.

I only have a couple more years, maybe. Zeke doesn't like to talk about it, but it's true.

I understand if you don't want to be friends. Honestly, it would hurt my feelings a lot, but still, I get it.

[wormchick]

[ Oh...

[ That's not fair! Not fair at all, actually!

[ Lily paces a bit, worried little hums accompanying some gentle rocking when she comes to a stop. It's at least a minute before Eren gets a reply. ]

I still want to be friends, very much.

Is it your lungs?
Sorry if that's a silly question, I know you use oxygen, but I wasn't sure if that was something separate.

[ Cue fairy-padding through to Lucy's office. Mama time is needed. ]

[wintolive]

[She's still talking to him. He doesn't mind her questions...]

It's my lungs. I got sick with a virus when I was thirteen. It's what killed my parents. I was in really bad shape - they thought I was going to die.

I never really got better after that. I developed Pulmonary Fibrosis. It's usually something old people or smokers get, but my infection was bad enough, I guess.

It makes my lungs scar up, and it gets worse over time. I didn't have to start using oxygen every day until a year or so ago. Like I said, they're bad enough now that I'll need two new ones, but that probably just isn't going to happen.

It sucks.

[wormchick]

[ From where she's cuddled up with her mum; ]

That does suck! Very much actually!

[ Lily isn't very good at typical comforting. But she is good at sharing facts, and so... ]

Did you know that if you stretched a set of lungs out, they'd be the size of half a tennis court?

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[...]

what the fuck
really??????
how the hell
WHAT?

[wormchick]

Mhm!! And they contain around 480 million alveoli too!

[wintolive]

oh yeah
i think that's the problem
mine are all scarred over
you know?

[...]

can we really still be friends?
i really like you
and no one ever wants to be friends with me, especially when they find out I'm temporary

[wormchick]

Mhm, yes please. I like you a lot too.

...I think a lot of the best things in the world are temporary.
So, it'd be silly to say I didn't want to be friends anymore.
That's what I think...

faith like "don't be too intense, lily" and then this from eren LMAO

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[...

[Little tears well up in Eren's eyes. He doesn't wipe them away.]

ive never gotten to make friends
i had them, but i had to move away
i have online friends, but they don't know, really

and im so lonely all the time
im so sad all the time
im so depressed and i feel like im wasting what i have

you made me feel happy
i had such a good time with you
i want to hang out with you as much as possible because im angry it took so long to find you
especially when you were always right there

its not fair