[Eren struggles to process the question completely. Sure, his feelings for Mikasa and Jean - even Captain Levi - have changed a lot since he got here, but it's only because they've been through so much Hell together, right? A lot changes in five months no matter where you are...]
I'm not sure exactly what you mean by that, but I don't think any of my feelings have changed as a result of this place directly.
Everyone here from my home is from a point in my future that I haven't reached yet. [Eh. In so many words, anyway.] My wife and husband are four years older than me now. We used to be the same age. That changes things a bit, I guess, but we're clearly still close.
I'm not entirely sure what I mean, either. Apologies if the question was unclear, but you strike me as a direct person, and I value that. I meant in a way disconnected from the people themselves and your interactions with them. Perhaps it would make more sense if you also felt it.
I can see how it would be complicated to be from different times, but that isn't what I meant. I'm glad you have your spouses with you here, and that your connection is still strong.
I wondered if what I'm experiencing might have something to do with what happened before I arrived and the recent strange events. Something occurred involving Vaeros, I believe?
I don't know a great deal about him, but I'll take that to heart.
[He's not entirely sure if he wants to slow down and discuss himself, but when asked, he doesn't object.]
Ah. Well, I have colleagues here, but I find myself increasingly less aligned with them. I feel distant from them, and in disagreement, as if we're not truly comrades anymore. Not that I wish to oppose them, but it's disorienting.
[Hm...And it has nothing to do with timeline differences or anything that's occurred between them since they arrived? Eren thinks of what this world takes from people; he's never heard of it stealing bonds, but...well...]
This might sound off topic, but do you normally have special abilities? If so, have they been missing since you got here?
Don't take this the wrong way, okay? Because I don't mean anything by it - that you don't care about your friends, or however it may sound.
But maybe your abilities gave you ties that just hook up differently to them. I'm not really sure how something like that would work, but when my abilities were taken, I felt entirely unlike myself. I still do. I'm so used to having them. Now that they're gone, my entire body feels different, and my mind too.
I'm not offended, Eren. I didn't take your words that way.
On the contrary, I believe that is very possible, and the fact that you experienced something similar makes it seem more likely. Although I have not spoken of it, my appearance and anatomy are altered here, along with the removal of my abilities.
You're the first person who has mentioned such a phenomenon to me. It makes sense that some people's abilities, by their nature, would be more closely linked to their bodies and minds than others'
It's true. I've had my ability since I was ten years old. It completely altered my body in every way, and my mind too, even though I didn't realize it at the time.
There was someone else here from my world with a similar ability, and he said the same. I didn't quite realize it until he put it to words, just like you're saying now.
That being said, if you save up enough shards, you can ask the crystal to give you back your ability. I've never heard of someone trying and not having it work.
Our abilities are very similar in that sense, then. My thoughts are also different, although—I'm not sure how much of that is due to what happened here, and what was caused by events before my arrival.
Your perspective has been very helpful. Are you planning to regain your ability? You don't have to answer the question; I don't intend to pry.
It's something I've been considering for a long time, but it hasn't been necessary yet. My ability comes with some pretty significant side effects.
[Namely, an expiration date. He and Reiner agreed that they wouldn't ask for their shifting abilities back unless they found they needed them; Eren told Mikasa and Jean that they could live long lives here together.
[Now, Reiner is gone, along with Hange, and so many others. Eren doesn't truly believe that their time here will last.]
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[Eren struggles to process the question completely. Sure, his feelings for Mikasa and Jean - even Captain Levi - have changed a lot since he got here, but it's only because they've been through so much Hell together, right? A lot changes in five months no matter where you are...]
I'm not sure exactly what you mean by that, but I don't think any of my feelings have changed as a result of this place directly.
Everyone here from my home is from a point in my future that I haven't reached yet. [Eh. In so many words, anyway.] My wife and husband are four years older than me now. We used to be the same age. That changes things a bit, I guess, but we're clearly still close.
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I can see how it would be complicated to be from different times, but that isn't what I meant. I'm glad you have your spouses with you here, and that your connection is still strong.
I wondered if what I'm experiencing might have something to do with what happened before I arrived and the recent strange events. Something occurred involving Vaeros, I believe?
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But yeah. Something big happened right before you showed up.
Slow down a second, though. Can't you tell me more about how you're feeling? Disconnected, how?
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[He's not entirely sure if he wants to slow down and discuss himself, but when asked, he doesn't object.]
Ah. Well, I have colleagues here, but I find myself increasingly less aligned with them. I feel distant from them, and in disagreement, as if we're not truly comrades anymore. Not that I wish to oppose them, but it's disorienting.
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This might sound off topic, but do you normally have special abilities? If so, have they been missing since you got here?
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Yes, I do have abilities which have been taken from me.
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But maybe your abilities gave you ties that just hook up differently to them. I'm not really sure how something like that would work, but when my abilities were taken, I felt entirely unlike myself. I still do. I'm so used to having them. Now that they're gone, my entire body feels different, and my mind too.
Could it be something like that?
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On the contrary, I believe that is very possible, and the fact that you experienced something similar makes it seem more likely. Although I have not spoken of it, my appearance and anatomy are altered here, along with the removal of my abilities.
You're the first person who has mentioned such a phenomenon to me. It makes sense that some people's abilities, by their nature, would be more closely linked to their bodies and minds than others'
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There was someone else here from my world with a similar ability, and he said the same. I didn't quite realize it until he put it to words, just like you're saying now.
That being said, if you save up enough shards, you can ask the crystal to give you back your ability. I've never heard of someone trying and not having it work.
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Your perspective has been very helpful. Are you planning to regain your ability? You don't have to answer the question; I don't intend to pry.
I am considering regaining mine.
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[Well...]
It's something I've been considering for a long time, but it hasn't been necessary yet. My ability comes with some pretty significant side effects.
[Namely, an expiration date. He and Reiner agreed that they wouldn't ask for their shifting abilities back unless they found they needed them; Eren told Mikasa and Jean that they could live long lives here together.
[Now, Reiner is gone, along with Hange, and so many others. Eren doesn't truly believe that their time here will last.]
There's a lot to consider about it. That's all.
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Upon reflection, I don't believe that is a good thing.
However, there are times it is a necessary thing. So I understand that.
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I kind of hate it.
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What matters is that I need the means to protect people.
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