[ Good news, Maruki doesn't yet know enough about this strange place to feel confident in saying whether or not the future is guaranteed. It might be. For his own sake, he's banking on the fact that it is, or his life will have been a waste. It would be disingenuous to tell someone otherwise.
Also, resisting the urge to ask how he's married – twice over, at that! – at his age. Put a pin in that for later. More importantly: ]
But you don't seem to take any pleasure in recalling it. Correct me if I'm wrong, but you seem remorseful.
[The "marriage" is as complicated as anything about Eren is. So is this:]
It's difficult to explain.
There are things that I'm remorseful about. I'm not sure that they're the right things. I regret that I hurt the people I care about, but I know that it was necessary at the time too, and that I'd do it again if I had to.
How can I be remorseful? What's done is done. If someone asked me if I was sorry, I wouldn't be able to just say "yes". That should say enough.
What's done is done... but you're still holding it over your own head as a justification to believe you're a bad person.
I can't change what happened to you, or what you chose to do. And I don't consider you a victim of your past either, Eren-kun. But you aren't a bad person either. A bad person would not torment themselves like that.
What if I told you there was a way to work on accepting these pains that you went through and move on from them?
It's not immediate. It'll take time and effort on both our parts. If you're willing to learn to trust me with your pain, I'll dedicate everything I've got to helping you overcome it.
A lot of people use mushroom houses or treehouses when they first get here. If you find an empty place, you can pretty much just move in. I've never heard any differently, at least.
And yeah. I've been delivering food to people for a long time. My husband cooks a lot, so we used to give it away to friends, but no one knows how to feed themselves when they first get here, so now we're giving it to new arrivals for a month until they can either get their own meals or pay for ours.
[Maruki's right, it's...an oddly philanthropic thing for some as supposedly rotten as Eren to do.]
Oh, no, I know. The other person from my reality was kind enough to show me the housing district and explain how things work. It's just a little... ah... it's not what I'm used to.
[ aka he is spending all his days in the cafe and his nights squatting for now in an empty hobbit hole and trying to get in on a roommate situation in a real building while he hoards all his shards for that sweet sweet business license. Can't believe Akechi lives in a castle and this is what he's resorting to. War is hell. ]
Anyway, that's an incredible thing to do, Eren-kun! I enjoy cooking too, so if you two ever need an extra hand in the kitchen just let me know.
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Also, resisting the urge to ask how he's married – twice over, at that! – at his age. Put a pin in that for later. More importantly: ]
But you don't seem to take any pleasure in recalling it. Correct me if I'm wrong, but you seem remorseful.
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It's difficult to explain.
There are things that I'm remorseful about. I'm not sure that they're the right things. I regret that I hurt the people I care about, but I know that it was necessary at the time too, and that I'd do it again if I had to.
How can I be remorseful? What's done is done. If someone asked me if I was sorry, I wouldn't be able to just say "yes". That should say enough.
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I can't change what happened to you, or what you chose to do. And I don't consider you a victim of your past either, Eren-kun. But you aren't a bad person either. A bad person would not torment themselves like that.
What if I told you there was a way to work on accepting these pains that you went through and move on from them?
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[Not just for him. Mikasa comes to mind first, then Jean - Captain Levi, even...]
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Do we have a deal?
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[But he feels...lighter, somehow. He really...needs that feeling.]
Alright. Just tell me how much to pay you. I still don't want to sign anything.
You're new, so I'll bring you food until you get settled. Just tell me where you're staying. I do it for everyone.
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Do you really bring everyone new food? That's so generous of you.
[ SEE, EREN. HOW COULD YOU BELIEVE YOU'RE THE BAD GUY WHEN YOU DO THINGS LIKE THAT!!!
Unfortunately now Eren gets to see just what a mess Maruki is in his own life despite having everyone else's perfectly together. ]
Haa... I'm still working on finding a suitable place to live, actually... But once I do, I'll let you know!
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A lot of people use mushroom houses or treehouses when they first get here. If you find an empty place, you can pretty much just move in. I've never heard any differently, at least.
And yeah. I've been delivering food to people for a long time. My husband cooks a lot, so we used to give it away to friends, but no one knows how to feed themselves when they first get here, so now we're giving it to new arrivals for a month until they can either get their own meals or pay for ours.
[Maruki's right, it's...an oddly philanthropic thing for some as supposedly rotten as Eren to do.]
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[ aka he is spending all his days in the cafe and his nights squatting for now in an empty hobbit hole and trying to get in on a roommate situation in a real building while he hoards all his shards for that sweet sweet business license. Can't believe Akechi lives in a castle and this is what he's resorting to. War is hell. ]
Anyway, that's an incredible thing to do, Eren-kun! I enjoy cooking too, so if you two ever need an extra hand in the kitchen just let me know.
Maybe for now I can just come pick it up...?
"war is hell"
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Thank you for taking a chance on this, Eren-kun. I hope it'll be fruitful for you. We'll talk soon!
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[ probably from how fussy you've been about the housing, yes ]
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He uses -chan and -tan. He's the only other person I've seen use words like that at the end of names.
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Oh!!! So it isn't just Akechi-kun and I... That's great!
It's a habit from working with students, but if you don't like it, just let me know and I'll stop.
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You said you know Akechi? Is he from your world?
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[Let's leave that at that. Local celebrity? Yeah, Eren too, but come on.]
I'll see you around then, Doctor.